the flu

so i got my h1n1 flu shot a while back, because of the mini outbreak, now i am not just immune to that, but a lot of stuff, even these small colds going around, i am just watching everybody aroound me get sick, while i just sit here...feeling fine. i feel bad for them, but i am very glad that i am not getting it

why is it taking so long

i got a phone call on saturday, from the lady at the park. that i sould be in by the weekend,the next one of coarse. well i waited and it is thursday night, and still no phone call, she said that she would call me a couple days before i can move, well then why has she not called yet???? i am trying to be patient but come on. i also dont have everything i need yet, i have a lot, enough to get by for now, but i do need a little bit more.

staying at grams

we were at loredas house, and jo had finnally given in and fallen asleep...............and loreda comes home, i said right when they walked in shhhhhhhhh joaquin is asleep. and of course not so much they talk like i never even let them know..............then maggie starts crying..........that is right a six year old. and all the commotion..........jo wakes up....great....we decide it is best to leave, i understand you are getting tierd of me being there, but come on i am leaving in less than a week, the least you could do would be to let jo sleep without the attitude, it has just been so out of hand lately...i have been wasteing gas that i dont have these past few days to try to keep myself out of there......i am running out of ideas though.i know everything will be fine next week...but it is hard to wait.

so we decide to stay the night at my grams house, she said yes, so we packed up, got in the car, and left....... as if anything will be any different when we get back, but i can hope it will be, and i can look at it like, hey 1 day closser.

jo's halloween changes

october 31, 2008october 31, 2009

i knew he was a big boy who grew a lot this past year, but looking at these 2 pictures....you wouldn't believe they are the same little man.

things are looking better

well yesterday did not go very well, and early this morning was not shapping up to be much better, but i guess i was wrong about today not going well, because it did, we went to walmart to pick something up for my grandmother, and the halloween stuff was soooooooooo cheaply priced. i got some pj's for jo, baby's costume for next year, a couple trick or treat buckets, a shirt for me, and a tote to store it all in this year. and the tote was halloween orange, adorrable.

so i drop jo off with stephen, so i can finish my busy day at a semi faster speed, i go to dhs, and wait in the waiting room for over an hour, but once i get in i was only in there for not even 5 minutes. i got a tracfone.......but dont call me because it is just for emergencies. but just to let whoever wants to know....the number is 595-1733 call if it is REALLY important.

i had to get oil for the car...............that threw me back a little, not much, but a little. i have no money, so it is hard to need stuff like that, i had to get the halloween stuff because all together i did not even spend $5 on it.

i got back to loredas, and find out that i am not watching austin there, so i had to go to my gram's house, not a problem because i would have probably gone up there anyway, but it was just a surprise for me. no prob. i guess i am not getting him tomorrow, or for the rest of the week, i must have really hurt beckys feelings last night, i feel terrible....i wish i hadn't have said anything.

before i leave for my grams house, loreda said someone from the adult ed office called, so i called them back, and........(wait for it)...................i passed my final test...........490..................yay.............i have it i have it i have it.i will have it in the mail by monday, so not only am i moving next week...or so, but i got my ged, and now, just yay.

semi busy

well jo wakes me up around 7 this morning, about an hour early, but how is he supossed to know about the time change a couple nights ago. i hope that he does get back into routine soon though. i give him breakfast, but feel so.....strange, so after breakfast he plays in the playpen and i go lay down for a few minutes.but i get a phone call and have to take it, it is the lady from alpine park, she is ready for me to send her the papers, so i get those ready, i will be sending them out in the morning. i get jo ready and we go over to the post office to get a money order for insurance. get that, pay that, and head up to west paris to get stephen. we then go back to loredas, but i feel some tension when she got upset with jo not even 2 minutes after we get back, and i really feel it when she got annoyed when i asked if jo could take his afternoon nap in her bedroom..........like he always does. so becky brings austin over, she leaves to vote, i take jo and ozzy to the dr. with me to get my shot.........i find out that i passed my glucose test, i AM anemic, and i have an infection and have to go to rite aid to pick up medicine tomorrow.but the low iron thing explanes the way i have been feeling lately.....i am constantly exausted. anyway we then go up to my grams house and jo and ozzy try this new baby snack gram picked up, they LOVE it. keith picked them austin up at 5ish and we left at about 6:30. me and stephen had a little argument...not any different than normal. jo goes to bed, stephen goes up to his dads, i am ok with it because i am allset with him being up back, they are soooo nasty, i am so done with it. i talk to becky, and even though i am wathing austin double the amount of time, by the way i have no problem with it, i love him, jo loves him nd we have a good time. but i am not getting paid anymore, i understand keith wants to hunt and he does not really get it in because he is one of those few people who accually work for a living, becky is lucky she found one of those guys, i want one. but anyway i am not getting paid more, it is fine because we are related, and it helps me deal with it and understand where they come from. if we were not related, i honestly dont know what i would say, i dont want to hurt her feelings, and i brought it up but backed down, to not cause any drama. i dont want to do anything to bring us any more apart than we are, for fear of the new family moving in on where i have been in her life. to many people are telling me what i should and should not do, why cant you leave me alone and let me decide.....it might be because sometimes i dont even know what i want.

nov. 1 2009

first jo wakes up at about 3ish and does not go back to sleep for a while, but he has 2 teeth trying to come through at once. but he gets back to sleep, we get up at around 9ish. breakfast....jo and stephen head to west paris while me and gram go post halloween shopping. we get back around 4ish....did not get much, but got a couple good deals.

a couple hours later we decide to head to aub. and jo wanted to play on the machines...so we let him, he had a good time.