my babies

jo got sick

i was having some trust issues in the past couple months with somebody because i let jo go over to there place for a few hours and he came back with a bad rash, but after serious thought and a lot of nagging from the other party i gave in and let him go over for the night, i know the rash thing was probably an accident, and if i was babysitting someone and they had a stinkless dirty diaper that was not making them squirmy..... i might not know they needed it changed right off and the small chance of them developing a rash would not be 100% my fault, and i would hate to get punished into never seeing them again because of it, so anyway i let him go over there for the night, i finally realized i need to not be my mom and try to not let myself get so untrusting with sooooo many people. he went over, as far as i knew things were going great, i went and got him the next evening and he had a bad cough, i tried to blow it off thinking it will probably be fine, but even after a couple hours it wasnt and he sounded much like a seal.... im not even kidding. i brought cole to his grandparents house while me and jo went to the emergency room, he had gotten croup, they said it is very common and it will go away in a few days, but it still hurt my heart that the very next time i let him go over there he gets sick, that was a couple days ago and he is still sick, but it doesnt sound croupy anymore as much as it just sounds like a cold to me, but they said it may turn into a cold before he gets better, just to give him tylenol to keep the fever down and be patient, it could take 5 or 6 days before he even starts to feel better.
i started to worry because he went to a birhtday party and the next day the kids at the party were sick, really sick im talking er sick, one of them had to spend the night in the hospital, it was bad, and now all i can do is cross my fingers that jo doesnt get what they have. and that cole just makes it through all of it without getting sick at all.

the car

i think it was june of last year that i got my first car, $200.oo its not a bad first car it was doing well for having a driver like me in it, and not to mention stephen rode it just as hard as i could. well since i got it it needed to be jumped once or twice a week atleast, depending on how hard we beat on it at the time, but until the begining of december i hadnt put more than $10 into repairs and for a car as old as it was and as damaged as it was that is accually saying something. but in december it did one of its usual breakdowns........ or so i thought this time it was worse, my tor had let me down, and it didnt come at a great time for me either, but i got rides to where i needed to be and sometimes rides to unneeded places as well, but enough was enough and it just isnt fair for everybody for me to expect them to be there for me, but they were, i had people help me, the car didnt get fixed right away, when it did start getting fixed it seemed like everytime it did another problem came up, but i had been driving around with manual steering since i got the thing and as long as the car was running i could tollerate the steering, i accually liked it a little, cause nobody really wanted to borrow it while it was like that, and honestly i dont care if you want to borrow it, i help when i can.
i was not the one who payed for the first set of repairs, and boy that really makes me sound cheap. i did pay for the next set of them, i had gone almost 2 months with driving other peoples cars or getting rides and i just wanted my baby back. i got it back and in no time at all there were more problems, i am not even kidding, i think it happened the first day i tried to drive it after getting it back. and i was not the one who payed to fix that problem either, wow i really am cheap, people like to help me, and i am not saying i dont enjoy the help i am just saying that i wish i was above needing it all the time.
well i have my car and needless to say i am not being any more careful with it, to many more repairs and its over, i dont think it will be worth it. after it was fixed and working this time i had it five days and went over 400 miles in that timeframe. i almost ran out of gas last night, and knowing this might happen i still went an extra 40 miles without putting a penny into it. i get over 30 miles to the gallon, with the amount of driving i do i gotta say that is a really good thing.

feb. 1 2010

i spent the night at my sissys, last night after a long day yesterday, at 10:30 last night i got there, it was great that she wanted me to come over because i did not have either of the boys and i would have gotten a little depressed if i was alone, it has been a long time since i didnt have any kids with me, we got there and we played beckys new playstation 3 until 1:30 we finally went to bed, i woke up at 8 and went home, i may or may not have taken a short nap when i got home(wink wink) at nine i went ice fishing......yeah right, as if what i did was ice fishing, but whatever, thats what they call it, ice and fish but no.
then at 1 donna came over and hung out for a little while.

feb. is reconection month

as everybody who is me knows feb. is reconection month, the time where any friendship or anything gets somehow strained in any way.... this month is when you get over yourself and fix it.
i started reconection month by fixing my friendship with donna, and so far so good, we talk and hung out, it was nice i hope everything stays on this path, and this is just the begining of it, not just destoryed relationships, even ones you just let slip away because you didntg have the time to keep them strong, i dont care if you were friends for a day or a lifetime, if you let it slip, now is the time to fix it, you have till the end of feb. and you have absolutely no excuses.

today jo was playing IN the toybox

so yesterday i get a phone call about nine o'clock in the morning, it is the cable guy, he is just making sure i am still getting it, i told him yes and he said alright i will be there in about 10 minutes. i had all three boys, and he came at the perfect time, they were all just waking up so i put them in the highchairs and gave them breakfast, by being in the highchairs they did not get in his way at all, and that made me glad.

so i have cable and internet, jo has to get used to it a little bit, he wants to pull wires and push buttons but it wont be long before he understands that he cant do that.and austin could not be more in love with himself, anything he could possibly see himself in he practicly makes out with his reflection, its cute, but i hope jo doesnt pick that up.

stupid me being so excited about cable and internet did not get to bed until after 4 this morning, i should have just stayed up if i was going to for that long. i was sure tired when cole woke me up at 8, but we got back to sleep just in time for austin to get here, becky tried to put austin back to bedc but after 20 minutes of him crying i knew he was not ready to go back to sleep already so i let him get up, changed his pants and just let him go play, i knew that was all he really wanted. i gave the boys lunch at noon, then sent them to bed, i found myself with three napping boys and was soooo excited, i even did the dishes, then cole woke up for a bottle, a few minutes later they were all up, my gram visited twice today because of a dr. misunderstanding, becky and keith came to get austin together cause she didnt end up working after all and they both went home without picking him up, she thought i was kicking her out at 4, but i was not trying to be rude, i made plans and she cant expect me to change my plans because she finally has time for me. she never changes hers for me.

COLE BAILEY

december 20, 2009

7:09 am

6 pounds

19 1/2 inches