what a crazy night

jo is going through so much tonight i feel so bad, he could not eat a good supper tonight because his teeth are hurting, and he was not really up for much because he has a cold, and to make things worse he is still dealing with the stress of no more bottles, just sippies i just feel so bad for the little man, but even though he did not really eat much super it did not go to waste, as you can see, who would have thought a cat could like green beans huh

the jacket

i have never know of something not living to cause this much stress.it is an awesome jacket i think it is one of the cutest things i have ever seen, but that is not the point the point is that it is something that other than in a couple pictures he will never where and you know why i can honestly say that because i am his mom and i say so, that is right i have that power. sorry not where i was going with that, stephen is convinced that i dont want him to wear it because of who got it for him, and that is anything but the case here, i mean wow stephen how retarded do you think i am. i dont see any sence in keeping it because it is not my style and i know that i will not be the one wearing it but if i dont want him to wear it he is not going to case closed.....well kinda if he is not going to wear it then why cant i get rid of it why does it have to take up what little space i have?

life and all its q"s

what is the centerpiece to a "good" life?
is it a good husband or an excellent wife?
when do you learn what you cant live without
when do you see, or loose all your doubt
when do you love and keep right ahold
when do you know when its time to let go
why does it feel like they dont always care
how do you know who will always be there?
when do you know when to laugh or to cry
why does it feel like you cant even try
when you want to give up and can barely hold on
who will be there to make you feel strong
when everyones gone and you feel kind of cold
will there be someone there? someone to hold

im doing it

i had a rough day today it was a little stressful, but it is ok now because i got past all the nervousness and accually went tonight, i am sooo pround of myself, i took the pretest and they said i did soooo great i am going to take the test tomorrow, updates later

little ozzy and then not really LITTLE ozzy anymore

little ozzy came in jan. and i have many memories of him growing up, i always thought to myself last time i saw him he couldn't do that. i know i see him all the time but he is always so different each one. he was this cute little newborn the first time i saw him and then after that each time it is like becky stop letting him grow up so fast, and then i think of myself jo is already a year old.......how did that happen??? and if he is REALLY a year old then that must mean that oz is already 8 months. the days dont seem to go by fast untill you look back and realize how on earth did all that happen so long ago?

stephen and jo

the other parent?

how hard is it to raise a baby without

the other parent, not to raise a baby

by yourself, i mean i have help but not

the other parent. i have not had contact

with him in i dont even know, 3 or 4 months.

he did not even come down to see him for

his birthday. i had no problems with mike

but i cannot believe someone would ignore

there own child on there first birthday

and the sad thing ishis mom wants to spend

more time with jo than mike does. i love joaquin

and i guess i just dont understand how mike couldn't. but you turn around over here and see stephen, a guy who could very well just walk away, but instead puts up with me to take care of a child that is not even his. i will admit that we fight...a lot and we fight over the stupidest things

but just in case anyone didnt know...i always win, because i am always right. but that is not the point, the point is why did he feel such a connection to this baby?