desperate need of a couch

i dont know what to do, my couch got ruined, as everybody already knows, but i just cant seem to find one to replace it. and i still need atleast one more dresser, maybe two. i realized today when i was getting ready to eat lunch (spagettios) and i realized that i dont have a can opener, how sad, i didnt even think about that when i went appt. shopping

ahhhhhhhh

i am getting so tierd of not making myself tell people how i really feel about things, but everytime i do someone always gets hurt, i dont feel like i am being used, i just feel like people dont tell me things they want me to do, i know those are kinda the same thing, but they are not, why do you think i am going to say no???? you think i am that mean, i understand that i cant always say yes to you, but for the most part i am going to, dont lie to me, or work your way around the subject.
and all the drama of being afraid that i am going to hurt peoples feelings makes me just end up hurting other peoples feelings, you know what i mean, when i finally work up the guts to do or say something, the people either dont take it well, or they take it great and someone else does not take it well, that is where i wish i was like becky, i wish i could just do what i wanted to do, but i am to.... me to be able to do that.

i am here

well i am in, after all the drama i am accually in, the problems started right away though, i should not use the stove unless i absolutley have to they said, because it is a loaner stove, my new one is coming monday. the toilet is still broken, it needs to be replaced, because of thanksgiving moving my stuff over is taking forever, the couch got ruined...... it seemed like it would just keep going down, but it accually didnt

becky came over a few times when i was feeling a little overwhelmed, and that really helped, she always makes thing look nice, and i really enjoy the company. things may sometimes feel stressful, but i am just so glad to be here, and i know that everything that is going wrong.......it will not be to long before they are fine.

then the car

ok so the car is like barley haning on right now, and anytime i want to go anywhere stephen says to me something like do you really want to put the car through that. i know he says it so i dont go places like my sisters because he is afraid i will ask him to go with me. but today he calls me up and says to me i need to use the car to take my brother up to my moms, i said do you really want to put the car through that? he said it can handle it. i said do you have gas for it, he said no you can put some in cant you? i said no i have no money, i dont even have enough for rent, i dont know what i am going to do. he says well $5 is not going to hurt anything, just let me use the car, i said no, and he said remember that, and then he hung up. man i am sooo mad at him, he just keeps getting more and more childish.

simple saturday

i went to bed last night, very angry at facebook, yes i know are you kidding, mad at facebook, but i was, because that is my comunication center, i have no phone and i dont want to keep asking loreda to use hers. it is hard to figure out what is going on when your comunication center is not working, yes becky i got that term from you. anyway not only could i not talk to people last night, but i could not talk to becky, so i did not know what time oz was coming over this morning. well i went to bed at 11 something, later than i should, but sooner than i planned. but becky comes in just before 8 and drops him off. jo was still asleep because of all the crazy stuff that went on last night, he was all excited, but because he went to bed almost 2 hours later than normal, he was asleep, and because oz is a baby and does not understand not to blurt out random noises, jo woke up, so he did not sleep the normal amount of hours, so he was cranky as the moring went on, so he took his nap a little before noonish and is still asleep right now, so when he wakes up he is going to be crazy hungry, because he has not had lunch yet. oz just fell asleep a few min ago, he did not have a nap this morning so he was a little bit more tierd than say a normal day. stephen showed up just after 8 this morning, i was surprised, i thought wow you showed up when you said you were going to, maybe this means today will go fine, and today has gone fine, but no thanks to him. yes he did show up a t 8 something, but he did not help me......at all and that is fine, i dont need the help, it is just nice to have. we had pancakes for breakfast, they were good, mine had chocolate ships in them so that was good. now it is 1 something, i am getting a few minutes to relax because they are napping, becky will be here in about 3 hours, then we will see where things go from there.

the move is getting close

well we called cmp today, and they will hook up the electric on monday, and that is good because that means that ball is rolling, i mean we cant move until it is turned on, so i am glad that is sorta out of the way. now we are waiting on that stove...........and everything is allset, other than that, so as soon as that gets there, i need to sign the papers, pay my rent, and move in. i am very excited about it. but come on, i have been being led on for over a month now, i wish at this point that it would just happen already.

well, we met