Wednesday, September 30, 2009

what a crazy night

jo is going through so much tonight i feel so bad, he could not eat a good supper tonight because his teeth are hurting, and he was not really up for much because he has a cold, and to make things worse he is still dealing with the stress of no more bottles, just sippies i just feel so bad for the little man, but even though he did not really eat much super it did not go to waste, as you can see, who would have thought a cat could like green beans huh

the jacket

i have never know of something not living to cause this much is an awesome jacket i think it is one of the cutest things i have ever seen, but that is not the point the point is that it is something that other than in a couple pictures he will never where and you know why i can honestly say that because i am his mom and i say so, that is right i have that power. sorry not where i was going with that, stephen is convinced that i dont want him to wear it because of who got it for him, and that is anything but the case here, i mean wow stephen how retarded do you think i am. i dont see any sence in keeping it because it is not my style and i know that i will not be the one wearing it but if i dont want him to wear it he is not going to case closed.....well kinda if he is not going to wear it then why cant i get rid of it why does it have to take up what little space i have?

Monday, September 28, 2009

life and all its q"s

what is the centerpiece to a "good" life?
is it a good husband or an excellent wife?
when do you learn what you cant live without
when do you see, or loose all your doubt
when do you love and keep right ahold
when do you know when its time to let go
why does it feel like they dont always care
how do you know who will always be there?
when do you know when to laugh or to cry
why does it feel like you cant even try
when you want to give up and can barely hold on
who will be there to make you feel strong
when everyones gone and you feel kind of cold
will there be someone there? someone to hold

im doing it

i had a rough day today it was a little stressful, but it is ok now because i got past all the nervousness and accually went tonight, i am sooo pround of myself, i took the pretest and they said i did soooo great i am going to take the test tomorrow, updates later

Friday, September 25, 2009

little ozzy and then not really LITTLE ozzy anymore

little ozzy came in jan. and i have many memories of him growing up, i always thought to myself last time i saw him he couldn't do that. i know i see him all the time but he is always so different each one. he was this cute little newborn the first time i saw him and then after that each time it is like becky stop letting him grow up so fast, and then i think of myself jo is already a year did that happen??? and if he is REALLY a year old then that must mean that oz is already 8 months. the days dont seem to go by fast untill you look back and realize how on earth did all that happen so long ago?

Thursday, September 24, 2009

stephen and jo

the other parent?

how hard is it to raise a baby without
the other parent, not to raise a baby
by yourself, i mean i have help but not
the other parent. i have not had contact
with him in i dont even know, 3 or 4 months.
he did not even come down to see him for
his birthday. i had no problems with mike
but i cannot believe someone would ignore
there own child on there first birthday
and the sad thing ishis mom wants to spend
more time with jo than mike does. i love joaquin
and i guess i just dont understand how mike couldn't. but you turn around over here and see stephen, a guy who could very well just walk away, but instead puts up with me to take care of a child that is not even his. i will admit that we fight...a lot and we fight over the stupidest things
but just in case anyone didnt know...i always win, because i am always right. but that is not the point, the point is why did he feel such a connection to this baby?

oh boxes

all i can say is that when you are living in a space that does not have much room for you, you have to limit your stuff. now with someone like me that is not an easy thing to do, i mean it is not like i own a lot of things, but i guess that the things i own take up a lot of space. and the worst part of it isjo's birthday came around and i am not going to lie, he got some awesome gifts, it could not have gone much better than it did, but the point isfor some reason everyone wanted
to get him something that takes up space no i mean you saw the list, you know that there were some pretty large gifts in there, i could not be more happy that he got gifts that he will enjoy playing with, but where am i going to put them all????

aunt becky's

went to aunt becky's this morning to play outside we had such a good time but have to cut it
short because i have an appt that i can not cancel. but we hope to do it again tomorrow, not going to work because tomorrow and sat. i want to have a yard sale and get rid of some of the stuff that has been pileing up everywhere.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

oh what a day

oh what a day we had today, going to bed, i just knew that when we got up today was going to be great.................but then it happened, we got up and it was not great.
i hear the bedroom door open at about 7 this morning and i am thinking great...why at 7
i turn to see who it is and wow what a surprise it was stephen wanting to use the car, as if i am going to let you use the car when i need you to be here when jo gets up oh, how i hate when people dont understand. the point is when ever he said something to me jo would roll over............shut up already it is to early for him to get up, now if he wakes up on his own that is different but do not wake him up, so he throws a fit and leaves.....or so i thought. 8 rolls around and the door opens again and this time it does wake him up aparently he never left he just was waiting on the couch in the other room. so i get mad at him, and the sad part is that everyone was upset, why are you getting so mad at him.
well anyway i dont let him use the car...per se but i tell him that WE can use the car, so we go to where he needs to go and then he goes to an appt he has while me and jo go to the dollar store when that is all over we go to the park for a little while, and jo just had a blast.
we get back to rere's and she is not there, we eat lunch and jo will not stop going to the bathroom
becky calls...or i call her, whatever i dont really remember at this point anyway her knee hurts
whatever no big deal stephen is here he can get austin. but then when we hang up i tell him he needs to cary austin in for becky he says ok, but not even 2 min. later he says he is leaving
and i am like ummmmm no you have to cary austin in remember, but why? huh why cant she do it? i already told you why i mean come on are you stupid.
no i am sorry i am not trying to be mean but as if he didn't remember.
well then jo starts getting all happy and excited and takes off running, or not, he nose dives
and hits the floor
remember this the first nose bleed 9-23-09 1:30ish i was so scared i mean i was more upset then he was about it but things are a lot calmer now and i hope that the rest of the day goes better.

the day after

the day
the party

we wanted to try out our new trycicle so we went outside.we must have played outside for a good hour or 2. we went down the hill to gaga's then back up the hill to rere's we got tired of the
trycicle after a little while so we just played in the grass after that. even wilbur wanted to get in
on the action.

the night of....

so the party is over, we are winding down and getting ready for bed. we take our bath and put on our brand new sleeper that my grandparents got for me for my birthday earlier that day
boy i just looked cute going to bed that night.

the party

the date came, it was jo's first birthday we were
all sooooo excited. almost everybody we invited came and brought jo the most wounderful gifts, he loved them so much.
the list:
aunt becky and uncle keith-
step start walk n' ride
doris & rodney-
pants & a hoodie
& 2 sleepers
margaret & bill-
3 sleepers & socks
grandparents d & c-
4 sleepers, a truck w/ a hammer
&box of books
great grammie-
toy box, keys, underwear
a cars movie & a dino
great grand bedards-
toy barn
rere & wilbur-
plaque & cell phone, socks
bear, clothes
2 outfits & ele toy
mosher grands-
tric and helmet
and a bunch of stuff from mommy, too much to tell right now
we had a great time, cant wait till next year.